I’m so fucking stressed. Keith and Sean were going to smoke during lunch on thursday and I decided to tag along with them but NOT smoke. We walked off campus and we get to the spot and then the police came when Sean was about to take the first hit.
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both are suspended for 10 days. I was drug tested and I probably will be suspended.
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Sean and I went on a date on Friday. it was amazing. he kissed me. :3
It’s likely that Sean likes me. omfg. He’s SO gorgeous. So, Sean and I have becoming FRIENDLIER and TEXTING and shit like that and yesterday, Sean and our friend Keith were hanging out (while high) and they called me right before I was going to shower and after I showered too lol. THEN today during Theater Arts, Keith said, “DOMENICA! I HAVE TO TALK TO YOU!” and I was like “sigh Keith what is it” and he says, “Do you like Sean?” and on the inside I’m like “whatwhatYESYESIDOYESYESYES” but on the outside I was like “….no? why would you think that?” and he says “oh, Sean thinks you do.” and I was like “PSHHHHHHHHH why would Sean think that? PSHHH NO WAY LOL TOTALLY PLATONIC LOL PLATONIC”and Keith says “Well, we were talking about you and he thinks you like him, and he said that if you do like him, then he thinks you like him for who he is, and he likes that.” And I’m like “Keith what does that mean?” and he said, “Well, he thinks that if you guys were together, then he could be himself around you.” and I was like. HOLY SHIT. and he said something else and I forget it but he says that he also likes that I smoke (lol?) and I think he mentioned that Sean said It’d be nice if I liked him and I said, “Why, does Sean like me back?” and Keith is like “I don’t know. PROBABLY.”
Tomorrow, I’m going to talk to you.
I have to learn that heartbreak will happen. I will never get what I want. I will always be broken. and I will always be hurt.
I will never, ever get what I want.
My heart will always be broken.
Sometimes, I think a we is possible. I think about a you and I, I think about an us. Then I remember the real you and I.
I have to stop thinking about kissing you.
(Source: nickthejam)
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Oh, and one time when I was high with Sean, Leo, Cynthia, Keith, and this other kid who I don’t know, Sean and Leo played a game of trying to find my nipple through my shirt. I was standing in front of them and I didn’t realize what they were doing, lol.
